You are so confusing. I'm telling you I have to go to bed as we speak, since talking to you is getting me so down right now. I hate overly flirtatious, overconfident boys, but right now it'd be useful. At least it'd be more clear. When I was flirting with you, you got all one-word-texter on me. And I asked if I was making you uncomfortable, and that sorry if I was, I was just kidding around. And you said, "alittle. its ok". Sounds stupid, but to me, that signifies that you officially don't like me. Since if you liked me, you'd have responded better. Right?... I'm honestly upset right now. Near crying. This happens way to often. I really like a guy, and think, "I'm finally gonna get a boyfriend again!"....and then it doesn't work out, and I get upset. I've liked you for soon to be a full semester, and I REALLY thought I had a chance. I won't list WHY I thought I had a chance, since I'll sound conceited. But I really did. I really, really did. And I tried sooo hard to get you. You're what I want in a boy. You're way respectful, you never make sexual jokes or anything about girls. I love that. A boy who isn't obsessed with boobs and sex. And one who I honestly thought I had a chance with.
Wrong as usual :'(
I sound so emo right now, I'm sure. But it's just so frustrating. I can be cute around a guy when I really like him. I can be funny, I can be nice. I don't mean to sound conceited, but yeah. I know my good qualities. So why why WHY did I get way more relationships when I was an annoying weirdo instead of now?
Michael, I'm reading your old blogs. I'm reading a survey you did in one on March 31st, and these made me laugh:
"Did you kiss anyone?
No
Did you do anything more than kissing?
Calm down"
"Pull any all nighters?
Caitlin and I sat by the fire and drank hot cider til 4:00 in the morning.
Get anything pierced?
My eye ball"
It's comforting reading peoples old stuff. I like knowing that everything turned out okay, before they technically did at the time.
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